<sup>i've broken my heart so many times
i've stopped keeping track. talk myself in,
i talk myself out. i get all worked up, and
then i let myself down. i tried so hard not
to lose it. i came up with a millon excuses.
i thought i thought of every possibility.
and i know, someday, it'll all turn out.
you'll make me work so we can work to
work it out. and i promise you, kid, that
i'll give so much more than i get.
i just haven't met you yet.
i might have to wait, i'll never give up.
i guess it's half timing and the other
half's luck. wherever you are, whenever
it's right, you'll come out of nowhere
and into my life. and i know that we
can be so amazing, and, baby, your
love is gonna change me.---haven't met you yet; michael buble

thank you for the favs. it is greatly appreciated.

my god, i love this song. i read somewhere that if chocolate could sing, it would sound like michael buble.

yes. yes, it would.

i had a pretty good holiday. i dyed my hair yesterday; i wanted it to be a bit lighter than it turned out to be, but i think i like it, anyway. maybe i'll wash my hair with normal shampoo that isn't for colored hair for a little bit, depending largely on the reaction i get from the people i see at school tomorrow.

school. tomorrow. ew.

i'm not looking forward to dashing back into the stressful melee that is junior year. but oh well. at least i get so see my friends again.

and him. and hear his voice.

our hair is the same color now.





i love you guys.</sup>

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I would die to be able to write like these people.

<sup>~etre-aime
My favorite piece: [link] *NEW FAVORITE PIECE CHECK THIS OUT*

*ohsostarryeyed
My favorite piece: [link] *NEW FAVORITE PIECE CHECK THIS OUT*

=TEC-ThePenOfMerlin
My favorite piece: [link]

=shanemorris
My favorite piece: [link]

!persephone-wore-lace
My favorite piece: [link]

~eaglewarrio9
My favorite piece: [link]

=Corina90
My favorite piece: [link]

These people aren't even amazing. They are far too good to be amazing. I just thought they should know.</sup>

^{Our song is the way you laugh,
The first date: "Man, I didn't kiss him and I should have",
And when I got home, 'fore I said 'amen',
Asking God if he could play it again.---'Our Song', Taylor Swift}


Thank you very much to:
^{~Ladyclock (I hate. . .)
~GingerSpice019 (Three Little Words)
~Herzeleid-Painter (A Better Harbor)
~ocd-arsonist (Gone)
~poetic-phoenix (Boys and Girls)
~GrimmestFangs (Handwriting)
*betweenthepages (Writer)}
~LizMayhem (Paris; Elusive; SNV5, pg. 2, chap. 1; Strongbox; Epileptic)
~plum-perfect (Mambo)
~3v3rdr34m3r (Nowadays)
*EntertainingAngels (SNV5, pg. 4, chap. 1)
~jochannon (Mambo; Relief; Writer; Handwriting)
~MissPecheBlanche (Dust)*
~stuff7 (Dust)
~PG-for-Mild-Peril (Mambo; Cerulean)
~Aby-4 (Mambo; Relief)
~Ryu-SK (Mambo; Writer; Relief)
~sanddoll (Mambo)
~Voiceofasiren64 (Cerulean; Handwriting; Writer)
~kittykaz (Cerulean; Writer)
~WildRose4 (Relief; Handwriting)

<sup>*Edit---
=TEC-ThePenOfMerlin, as far as I know, is still working on his counterpart to 'Dust'. But I haven't talked to him in several days, so I could be wrong about that; either way, you should go gift him with pageviews and comments and most definitely favs, because if anybody deserves them, he does. And also bother him about 'dust bunnes/palm trees'.

---Edit 2---
I asked Merlin, and he said he was still working on his piece. Since he's taking his darned time (and this is said, as he well knows, with all the love in the world ), I decided to revise mine, because I wasn't really a huge fan of it. Anyway, so hopefully you guys will have something to compare my dastardlyawfulbadbadcrappy piece to soon. *crosses fingers* Either way, you should most definitely check him out, because, even if he continues to deny it for a million years, he is fantastic.</sup>

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10 things i wish i could say to people [most of these people don't even have dA accounts. ]:
<sup>1. you know, it's your own damn fault, because you're sweet and smart and funny and that picture is still fucking adorable.
2. it sucks you live a thousand miles away, because, you know, you're one of my best friends and i miss you.
3. you are. sosososososo. beautiful. don't let any boy, especially THAT ONE tell you otherwise. okay?
4. we used to be best friends. and now we're i'mnotevensureanymore. what happened to you?
5. okay, never shout never is an awesome band and thanks for starting the chain that brought them to me, but if you hurt her, sohelpmegod, boy, i am going to hunt you down and beat you until getting run over a million times by a locomotive with spikes on the wheels will feel like heaven in comparison. understand, hombre?
6. you're a better mother to me than my actual one is turning out to be.
7. i've known you since the fourth grade and i haven't stopped loving you anyway. best friends forever, gorgeous.
8. i'll trade my 'slightly bigger' boobs for your fantastic legs any day. deal?
9. if i never talk to you again, i won't miss you. i'll just miss what we should have been.
10. hang in there, doll.</sup>

9 things about myself:
<sup>1. i love my cats more than i love most people.
2. i fully believe in the phrase, "boys in books are just better". [then again, it's not like i have many options]
3. i dream about being beautfiul and famous and good at everything i do and about being loved.
4. i tell people my dream school is college of charleston, but, really, my dreamdreamdream school is juilliard, because i love to sing.
5. compliments scare me, because i'm afraid of not deserving them when it really counts.
6. i am a shameless twihard.
7. i want to name my firstborn son liam and my firstborn daughter piper.
8. i have a girl-crush on kristin davis (charlotte on 'sex and the city'.
9. i sing entire soundtracks/albums in the shower, just to pass time.</sup>


8 ways to win my heart:
<sup>1. show me that you know me; the little things are major with me.
2. have a passion, whether it be writing (my personal favorite, but, hey, i'm a little biased) or painting or anything, artistic or not.
3. make me smile, even when i think i've forgotten how.
4. know when to let me sulk, because some days, i'm just in the mood to wallow.
5. similarly, i'm sometimes in the mood to be a bitch. but i don't mean it; so just let me and i'll be so sorry later.
6. teach me something.
7. introduce me to new music or a new author.
8. oh, i don't know -- love me?</sup>

7 things that cross my mind a lot:
<sup>1. junior year. holycrapwhat'sthatonthehorizon?isthatcollege?ohcrap.
2. the future, in general.
3. words
4. song lyrics
5. ". . .did i do that? i was supposed to do that. did i ever get around to doing that?"
6. "i'm hungry. is there anything good to eat around here?"
7. "boy, i sure am hungry a lot. why aren't i fat?"</sup>

6 things i do before i fall asleep:
<sup>1. read
2. watch tv
3. brush my teeth/hair
4. listen to music
5. think
6. wish</sup>

5 places i want to visit:
<sup>1. IRELANDPLEASE.
2. france
3. spain
4. new zealand
5. everywhere else</sup>

4 things i'm wearing right now:
<sup>1. my awesome 'fox frenzy' shirt
2. sweats
3. rainbow sock, right foot.
4. rainbow sock, left foot.</sup>

3 bands/artists that i listen to often:
<sup>1. The Beatles
2. Cash Cash
3. Never Shout Never</sup>

2 things i want to do before i die:
<sup>1. Be published.
2. Find him.</sup>

1 confession:
<sup>i'm not scared of dying, only of dying alone.

courtesy of ~ohsostarryeyed's journal. yeah, she's down there in my favorite writers. you know why? 'cause she's freaking awesome. go to her, now.</sup>

Thank you very much to:
^{~smile-in-your-eyes (Starlight)
~mothfather (Three Little Words)
~Avesy (Anorexia)
~Ten-of-Ten (Three Little Words)
~Catprincess14 (Epileptic)
*DgenRetEliteRabbit (Strongbox)
~VoodooVinciChild (Paris)}
~Ryu-SK (Epileptic; Lackadaisical; Elusive; Strongbox)
~MissPecheBlanche (Epileptic; Elusive)
~stuff7 (Epileptic; Lackadaisical; Elusive; Strongbox; Paris)
~jochannon (Epileptic; Elusive; Strongbox)
~kittykaz (Epileptic; Lackadaisical; Elusive)
~AtlanaCullen (Epileptic; Strongbox: SNV5, pg. 1, chap. 1; Elusive)
~FenderK (Edward Anthony Masen Cullen)
~LizMayhem (SNV5, pg. 1, chap. 1; Lackadaisical)
~AngelPookie95 (Lackadaisical)
~sociometry (SNV5, pg. 1, chap. 1; Lackadaisical)
~WildRose4 (Lackadaisical)
~LittleMollyJewel (Strongbox)
~Aby-4 (Strongbox; Cold; Gone; Lackadaisical; Elusive)
*EntertainingAngels (SNV5, pg. 1, chap. 1; SNV5, pg. 2, chap. 1; SNV5, pg. 3, chap. 1)
~3v3rdr34m3r (Paris)
~Voiceofasiren64 (Paris)


<sup>Also, my friend, =TEC-ThePenOfMerlin and I decided to have a little contest; we're both writing a poem that has to mention 'dust bunnies and palm trees' (don't ask; he came up with the prompt ). I'll edit this journal when we both post our poems, and then you guys get to vote about who wrote the better poem (hint: it's going to be him; on that note, you should definitely check him out either way).

--Edit--
Merlin says, and I quote, "I know exactly what I'm writing about, now. So I should have my part done. Soon. I'll let you know when it's completed!" And, also, there was this little icon dude, but that's not as important. Although it is kinda cute, but whatever. So. Hopefully, we'll have something for you guys to vote for 'soon', whenever that is. But yeah. Prepare yourselves. It (it, meaning, Merlin's) shall be awesome.

--Edit 2--
I just wanna point out that even though I have posted my 'dust bunnies and palm trees' piece, that doesn't mean that Merlin has posted his. Because he hasn't. I assume/hope that he will finish his piece soon and will then astound you with his brilliance.</sup>

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I don't have any semester classes, which is weird. I don't think my schedule has ever been this . . . year-y before. .

1A -- Drama 2, Seel
2A -- Humanities 3 English AP, Shuler
3A -- Chemistry ADV, Lyerly
4A -- Spanish 2, Rivera

5B -- US History/Cons AP, Fisher
6B -- Algebra 2, Monroe
7B -- J2 News, Medlock-Greene
8B -- Psychology, Padgett

^{Whenever [I see someone less fortunate than I. . .ah, Wicked] I get bitten by the writer's block bug, it helps me to do some character interviews, to get the juices flowing and to rediscover my characters'. That being said, I was tooling around on dA today, and I found *Persnicketese, a friend of my friend, *Silvaz, who had this idea in her journal where the interviewed her characters, using questions that her Watchers had sent in to her. So, I was wondering if you guys would be kind enough to send me some questions for my MC's, specifically from "Suicide Notes", but you can also ask questions of Alanna ("Lucky"/"Wish Me Luck", Zac ("Lucky/"Wish Me Luck"), or Alanna from my NaNoWriMo novel. Please and thank you!}

--Edit--
Thank you very much to:
~AngelPookie95 (Cold; Gone; Freeze; Aspirin; I'm Screaming It; Cyanide; Technicolor; Three Little Words; Apathy)
~LizMayhem (Gone; Wish Me Luck, pt. 8; Freeze; Cold)
~MissPecheBlanche (devWATCH; Edward Anthony Masen Cullen)
~Reprieved (SNV5, pg. 1, chap. 1; Cold; Gone)
~jochannon (Gone; Cold)
~3v3rdr34m3r (Cold)
~stuff7 (Gone; Cold)
~WildRose4 (Cold; Freeze)
*sfm (Cold)
~FenderK (Wish Me Luck, pt. 8; Freeze)
*Penessence (Gone)
~Ryu-SK (Cold; Gone; Freeze; Wish Me Luck, pt. 8)
~PG-for-Mild-Peril (Dizzy)

--Edit 2--
^{Before I leave for CJI, I thought I'd leave you with a little literary treat. ~etre-aime and ~ohsostarryeyed are absolutely, positively, beyond amazing. Really. They make me feel rather awful about myself; and, also, if by some mischance of yours you haven't found him yet, go check out ~eaglewarrio9, the deviant who inspired my use of brackets and simply inspired me in general. See you on Sunday.}